Which is more exhausting,
being depressed
or faking that your not?
We want to belong. At our core I believe, that most of our problems, stems from us not wanting to be alone; not feeling like we don't belong and realizing that we may just be as average as we feared we would not be.
Our stress, anxiety depression,
anger, abandonment issues, all of it at the core bleeds from being alone, fear of it, memories from it, unhealed scars still lingering from the last time we had to admit that we experienced it
or just not wanting to
live with, identify or admit
being imprisoned by it.
We silently suffer in the fear and silence of loneliness, because we live in a world where the only thing worse that being alone,
is being discovered that you are.
So you fake book on Facebook
and pretend to be not lonely
on your Instagram and twitter.
We don't want to be alone but sometimes we are forced to be and the madness from it is making us sick! Sick! Sick sick!. We are dying from isolation disconnection and lack of human interaction.
We look around and the people that we are suppose to be connected to most of the times, we aren't. They know a version of us the ones we've sold them which is sometime the version we've sold ourselves.
Our Facebook,Instagram,Twitter version where we smile and everything is great while our hearts ache for someone we can tell that we are not ok we are not grounded. we are trying to figure out if we are alone and depressed or depressed and alone does it matter?.
We have normalized loneliness
as we perpetuate this cycle saying we have problems because we are alone while keeping to ourselves trying to be alone with our problems.