Denise Grandison
Nov 4, 20182 min
Updated: Jul 21, 2020
Which is more exhausting,
being depressed
or faking that your not?
We want to belong.
At our core I believe,
that most of our problems,
stems from us not wanting
to be alone;
not feeling like we don't belong
and realizing that we may just be
as average as we feared we would not be.
Our stress, anxiety depression,
anger, abandonment issues, all of it
at the core bleeds from being alone,
fear of it, memories from it,
unhealed scars still lingering
from the last time
we had to admit that
we experienced it
or just not wanting to
live with, identify or admit
being imprisoned by it.
We silently suffer in
the fear and silence
of loneliness, because
we live in a world
where the only thing worse
that being alone,
is being discovered that you are.
So you fake book on Facebook
and pretend to be not lonely
on your Instagram and twitter.
We don't want to be alone
but sometimes we are forced to be
and the madness from it is
making us sick! Sick! Sick sick!.
We are dying from isolation
disconnection and
lack of human interaction.
We look around and the people
that we are suppose to
be connected to
most of the times,
we aren't.
They know a version of us
the ones we've sold them which
is sometime the version
we've sold ourselves.
Our Facebook,Instagram,Twitter version
where we smile and everything is great
while our hearts ache for someone
we can tell
that we are not ok
we are not grounded.
we are trying to figure out
if we are alone and depressed
or depressed and alone
does it matter?.
We have normalized loneliness
as we perpetuate
this cycle
saying we have problems
because we are alone
while keeping to ourselves
trying to be alone
with our problems.